last entry..

tis is the 100th entry le..once told myself tat tis blog will stop at the 100th entry..and here is it..

a veri painful thing happened..i reali dun noe how to start..before all tis..can i request for something..please do not ask mi anything after reading tis entry..cos i dun wan to be reminded again..thank you reali..

the school is act a place i cried so mani times tis year..tis year hasnt been easy at all..experience alot of things which i nv tot i will cum across..it reali took mi alot..to climb up again and again..after falling again and again..wifout some pple..i would not haf done it..here..i reali wan to thank you..for helping mi again n again..for listening again n again..for comforting again n again..for alwaes n foreva being there..

on fridae i cried again..it came so suddenly..so shocking..i din noe how to react..i din noe something lyk tis can be done to mi..when i ehard it..i was so scared..tat i din noe wat to do..except to run out of the library back to class..at class..when they came..the words they said again..was so painful..i reali din noe how to react..tears jus came out..i reali hate myself..for being so weak..i reali din wan to cry over it..cos it's the third time..but i cant control myself..i dun noe y..i hate myself for being so stupid..i noe it's not worth it at all..but it jus cums out lyk tis..

sometimes i tink im the stupidest person ever..im veri stupid..i dun noe wat to do..i cant guess wat's happening..i dun noe how to handle the situation..hling said its a trap..and fallinf rite in..i noe i am..but i cant stop myself..y..y is all tis happening..am i not good enuff..am i so bad..y..theres so mani q in my mind..but i dunno how to solve it..i dun noe wat to do..i feel so so helpess..i dun noe how to defend myself..facing all tis accusations..

hling sae i trust pple too easily..now i learnt tat..tis world isnt act so simple..it too too complicated..where's the perfect world i alwaes tot of..wheres the beautiful..y muz i suddenly realise tat tis world is act such an ugly place..things i strongly nv believe existed..jus happens lyk tis..wat shall i do..

my heart is broken again and again..do u noe how much hurt ur are causing mi..or do ur noe..but ur are persisting..was it my fault..but y did things became lyk tis..the pple you once tot you trusted so much..but when everything turns the other way round..wat shd i do..

am i such a flawed person..wat shd i do..wifout apple hling n zr..i would haf collapsed long ago..how can i move on..how can i make myself forget everything..how can i make myself accept tat it was all wishful tinking on my part..

it's reali veri heartbreaking..it feels lyk i haf been stabbed again and again..by pple whom i noe..y let mi face all tis now..y let mi noe tat everything is jus a lie..it's all fake..

wat can i do to stop the tears..wat can i do to foeget the fears..the sadness..it jus hurts..perhaps too much for mi to bear..all the pain..im afriad to move on..i dun noe how worse can things can..y can they bear to do all tis to mi..even if i am jus a stranger..will they do tis to a stranger..

my tears are filling my eyes again as im typing tis..but i cant..i muz be strong..i muz face all tis wif courage..i realiw an to go back to 3 yrs ago..to someone who will protect mi..i dun dare to tink..the reasons behind all tis..i dun wan to tink..y are all tis happening..

now i noe the meaning of the word jaded..im jaded..how do i return to beofre..before all tis..how do i face the cold reality..wat shd i do..my heart hurts..badly..betrayed..stabbed..y all tis..was the world i tot of much too perfect..am i such a bad person..how do i stop these tears..who will mend the holes in my heart...

old pictures..memories..

another personality test...

If U were born on the 1st, 10th, 19th, 28th of any month U r number 1...

If U were born on the 2nd, 11th, 20th, 29th of any month then U r number 2...

If U were born on the 3rd, 12th, 21st, 30th of any month then U r number 3...

If U were born on the 4th, 13th, 22nd, 31st of any month then U r number 4...

If U were born on the 5th, 14th, 23rd of any month then U r number 5...

If U were born on the 6th,15th,24th of any month then U r number 6...

If U were born on the 7th,16th,25th of any month then U r number 7...

If U were born on the 8th,17th,26th of any month then U r number 8... http://yahoogroups.com/group/dewang/join

If U were born on the 9th,18th,27th of any month then U r number 9...

Number 1

You are smart, straight talking, funny, stubborn, hardworking, honest,
jealous on competing basis, kind hearted, angry, friendly, authoritive,
famous person...always want to be and regarded as first on people
position,they are often like to be independent, will never be under
others, self confident people!


You are most likely to fall in love in the younger age, but will get
marry when you mature! You are likely to have problems with people who have opposite views and you are most likely to take revenge over your
enemies in a long time basis. You are a spender, but you will have a good profession in the future. If you are guy you will be very popular that everybody will have mental attraction and respect at you. You can go anywhere from the localshop to the heart of the parliament because you are possitive and well tallented in numerous issues!! But in yourlife you will always have some people who will work hard to bring you & your name down. This is undercover!! Coz of your smart behaviour you will be hated by some people too...


Your family life is very cool,you will have a very nice partner &
wonderful children... You are pioneer, independent & original...


Your best match is 4,6,8 good match is 3,5,7 !!!


Number 2

No matter what, you will be loved by every one coz your ruler is the
Moon and every one loves the Moon. Well.. you are a person who day dream a lot, you have very low-self confidence, you need back up for every move in your life, you are very much unpredictable. Means you do change according to time and circumstances, kind a selfish, have a very strong sense of musical, artistic talent, verbal communication. Your attitudes are like the Moon, comes to gloom and fade away so everybody can expect changes in you. You can be a next Mahatma Gandhi who does peace love or you can be a Hitler who wants to destroy the man kind and peace (I mean in the community and your own home).

If you really have a deep thought about your own believe in God you can
feel the difference which will make you stronger! Most of the time your
words are a kind of would be happening true! So without any knowledge
you can predict the situation.. You will become poets, writers, any
artistic business people!

You are not strong in love, so you will be there and here till you get
marry.. If U r a girl you will be a responsible woman in the whole
family. If U r a man you will involve in fights & arguments in the family or
vice-versa. Means you will sacrifice your life for the goodness sake of
your family...You are gentle , intuitive with a broad vision, a power
behind the scenes, well balanced People!!!

Your best match is 2 ,5 ,9 no other people can put up with you !!!


Number 3

You are a person of hard hearted, selfish most of the times, religious,
loves to climb up in your life. You always tend to have lots of problems
within your family in the early stages but you will put up with everything.. You have the strong word power, pretty happy face.. so wherever you go always you have got what you wanted!!! And from the birth always wanted to work hard in order to achieve something.. You will not get
anything without hard work! When you reach a man/ woman age you want other younger once to listen to you because you want younger people to respect people older than them. You do set so many examples to others. Generally you are not a cool person. It's not easy thing dealing with you. A tough player you are! But once you like someone's attitud! e then here you go, what can I say? It will be a lasting friendship. You always have respect from others. Your life seems to have lots of worries and problems but sure they won't be long.. You will always have brilliant kids!!! You love the money a bit too much so temptation will push you to endless trying and trying.. If you are a guy then it's over. Looking after your family and help friends, so you will spend a life time just being generous and kind (except 21st born men). And number 3s you will be such an example of how to be in the culture & life!!! If you are girl then you have good character and culture & hardworking attitude. You always follow. You are a freedom lover, creative, ambition focused, a person who brings beauty , hope & joy to this world!!!

Your best match 6 ,9. Good match 1 ,3 ,5 !!!


Number 4

You are very stubborn too, very hard working but unlucky in important
matters in life, very cool, helpful, you have rough wordpower..Might
put lots of people away from you, you may cause nuisance to others if you are a man, and you often understands others and their problems well. If you are a girl you are very good with studies and arts. If you are a guy you spend most of the time after girl friends (almost)at times, you will have sort of too much fun life with mates & girls. Your friends will spend your time & money and get away with their life and you will become empty handed and don't know what to do.. So be careful!! You love to spend anyway!!! Your good will is you are always there to help family and friends. Tell you what you people are little gem! s, specially the girls.. You always fall in love in younger age as well. You often live with disappointments, for an example you have got a degree in some thing.. but you will be unemployed.. or will do very ordinary jobs. But you will take care of your family very well...All you need to be careful of people who will take advantage of your kind heart. And beware of your relations too.. You are radical, patient, persistent, a bit old-fashioned, you live with foundation & order...

Your best Match 1, 8. Good match 5 ,6 , 7 !!!


Number 5

You are very popular within the community, you can get things done by
justchatting..to even enemies! You have a pretty good business mind, you are often have no-idea what is today is like, or tomorrow is like, you are aperson who does anything when your head thinks "lets do this". You will be famous if you open up a business, get involve in share dealings, music etc.. Very popular with sense of humour ,you are the one your friends and families will always ask for help, and you are the one actually get money on credit and help your friends. You will have more than 1 relationship, but when u get settle down you will be a bit selfish anyway. Coz your other half will have a pretty good amount of control in you, be careful! You tendto go for other relationships! Contacts even you are married at times 'coz your popularity.. You are someone who get along with anyone coz the number 5 is the middle number.. Changes & freedom lovers you are! You are an explorer with magic on your face. You learn your life through experience and it's your best teacher!!!

Your best match 1 ,2 ,9. Good match 6 ,8 !!!



Number 6

Ooopppss..you are born to enjoy.. You dont care about others. I mean
you are always want to enjoy your life time, you are a person.. You will be very good in either education or workwise or business management! You are talented, kind (but with only people who you think are nice), very
beautiful girls and guys, popular and more than lucky with anything in
your lives. All the goodness does come with you. Your mind and body is just made perfect for love. You are loveble by any other numbers. But if you are a number 6 man, you will experience kinda looks from most girls and will involve in more than few relationships until you get married. If you are girl, most of you will get marry/engaged early. You are ! a caring
person towards your family & friends . If you miss the half-way mark then you are about to suffer physically and mentally. Generally you will lead a very good inner-home happiness with nothing short of. You are a person of compassion, comfort & fairness, domestic responsibility, good
judgement, and after all you can heal this world wounds to make peace for every life coz you have the great power of caring talent to make this world of love one step further...

Your best match 1, 6, 9. Good match 4, 5!!!


Number 7

You have got the attraction to anyone out there, you are realistic,
very confident, happy, such a talented individual with your education,
music, arts, singing, and most importantly acting too. You have real problems with bad temper! If you are a girl, you are popular with the subjects listed above. You give up things for your parents. I mean you value your family status a lot, you will be in the top rank when you reach a certain age. If you are a guy you are popular with girls, you are a very talented too. Most of the number 7s face lots of problems with their marriage life. Only a very few are happy. You have everything in your life, but still always number 7s have some sort of unfullfilness, such worries all their lifetime. It's probably the Lord given you al! l sort of over the standard humans talents and you are about to suffer in family life. So you need to get ready looking for a partner rather than waiting. If you don't, then you might end-up single. So take care with this issue, ok? You are wonderful, friendly, artistic, happy person. You are born to
contribute lots to this world!!!

Your best match is 2. Good matches are 1,4 !!!


Number 8

You are a very strong personality, there's no one out there will
understand you. You are very good at pointing your finger at some thing and say "this is what". You are more likely to suffer from the early ages. I mean poverty. If your times are not good you might lose either of your
parent and end up looking after your entire family. You often suffer all the way in life. The problems will not allow you to study further, but you will
learn the life in a very practical way. You are the one who will fight
for justice and may die in the war too. You are normally very reserved with handful of friends and most of the time live life lonely and always
prepared to help others. Well..once you get married (which is often
late) then your bad lucks will go away a bit and yo! u become safe. You will face un-expected problems such as : the error, government, poisonous animals, accidents. You are some one with great discipline, persistence, courage, strength which will take you to success. You are a great part of a family team. You are a fighter!

Your Best match 1 ,4, 8. Good match 5 !!!


Number 9

Hey..you guys are the uncompatible people in the world. You are so
strong, physically and mentally. You are often have big-aims. You will work hard and hard to get there. Normally you suffer in the early age from family problems and generally you will have fighting life. But when you
achieve what you have done, it's always a big task you have done! You are so much respected in the community, you are a person who can make a challenge and successfully finish the matter off. You are very naughty in your younger age, often beaten up by your parents and involve in fights and you seemed to have lots of injuries in your life time. But when u grow you become calm and macho type. Love is not an easy matter for you. You are good in engineering or banking jobs coz people a! lways trust you. Your family life is very good, but will have worries over your children. Your such qualities are humanitarian, patient, very wise & compassionate. You are born to achieve targets and serve every one all equally without any prejudice. You are totally a role model to anybody in the world for a great inspiration.

Your Best match 3, 5, 6, 9. Good match 2

which baby are ya..

came across tis personality test sent to mi by a fren..tot it was reali quite accurate..so decided to paste it here..=)


Jan
> Pretty/handsome. Loves to dress up. Easily bored. Fussy. Seldom shows
>emotions. Takes time to recover when hurt. Sensitive. Down-to-Earth.
>Stubborn. Repost this in 5 mins and you will meet someone new in 8 days
>that will perfectly balance your personality.
>Feb
> Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and abstract. Intelligent and clever.
>Changing personality. Attractive. Sexiest out of everyone. Temperamental.
>Quiet, shy and humble. Honest And loyal. Determined to reach goals. Loves
>freedom. Rebellious when restricted. Loves aggressiveness. Too sensitive
>and easily hurt. Gets angry really easily but does not show it. Dislikes
>unnecessary things. Loves making friends but rarely shows it. Horny. Daring
>and stubborn. Ambitious. Realizing dreams and hopes. Sharp. Loves
>entertainment and leisure. Romantic on the inside not outside.
>Superstitious and ludicrous. Spendthrift. Tries to learn to show emotions.
> Repost this in 5 mins and you will talk to someone new and realize that
>you are a perfect match.
>Mar
> Attractive personality. Sexy. Affectionate Shy and reserved. Secretive.
>Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic. Loves peace and serenity.
>Sensitive to others. Great kisser. Easily angered. Trustworthy.
>Appreciative and returns kindness. Hardly shows emotions. Tends to bottle
>up feelings. Observant and assesses others. If you repost this in the next
>5 mins, you will meet your new love in 8 days.
>Apr
> Suave and compromising. Funny and humorous. Stubborn. Very talkative.
>Calm and cool. Kind and sympathetic. Concerned and detailed. Loyal. Does
>work well with others. Very confidant. Sensitive. Positive Attitude.
>Thinking generous. Good memory. Clever and knowledgeable. Loves to look for
>information. Able to cheer everyone up and/or make them laugh. Able to
>motivate oneself and others. Understanding. Fun to be around. Outgoing.
>Hyper. Bubbly personality. Secretive. Boy/girl crazy. Loves sports, music,
>leisure and traveling. Systematic. Hot but has brains. If you repost this
>in 5 mins, a cutie that's caught your eye will introduce themselves and you
>will realize that you are very much alike in the next 2 days.
>May
> Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and highly motivated. Sharp
>thoughts. Easily angered. Attracts others and loves attention. Deep
>feelings. Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm Standpoint. Needs no
>motivation. Shy towards opposite sex. Easily consoled. Systematic (left
>brain). Loves to dream. Strong clairvoyance. Understanding. Sickness
>usually in the ear and neck. Good imagination. Good physical. Weak
>breathing. Loves literature and the arts. Loves traveling. Dislike being at
>home. Restless. Not having many children. Hardworking. High-spirited. If
>you repost this in the next 5 minutes, you will become close to someone you
>do not speak too much in the next 4 days.
>Jun
> You've got the best personality and are an absolute pleasure to be
>around. You love to make new friends and be outgoing. You are a great flirt
>and more than likely have an a very attractive partner. a wicked hottie. It
>is also more than likely that you have a massive record collection. You
>have a great choice in films, and may one day become a famous actor/actress
>yourself - heck, you've got the looks for it!!! IN the next 6 days you will
>meet someone that may possibly become one of your closest friends, if you
>repost this in 5 minutes.
>Jul
> Fun to be with. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to be understood.
>Quiet unless excited or tensed. Takes pride in oneself. Has reputation.
>Easily consoled. Honest. Concerned about people's feelings. Tactful.
>Friendly. Approachable. Emotional temperamental and unpredictable. Moody
>and easily hurt. Witty and sparkly. spazzy at times. Not revengeful.
>Forgiving but never forgets. dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things.
>Guides others physically and mentally. Sensitive and forms impressions
>carefully. Caring and loving. Treats others equally. Strong sense of
>sympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges people through observations. Hardworking.
>No difficulties in studying. Loves to be alone. Always broods about the
>past and the old friends. Waits for friends. Never looks for friends. Not
>aggressive unless provoked. Loves to be loved. Easily hurt but takes long
>to recover. Repost this in the next 5 mins and your reputation will boost
>someway in the next 12 days
>Aug
> Outgoing personality. takes risks. feeds on attention. No self-control.
>Kind hearted. Self-confident. Loud and boisterous. VERY revengeful. Easy to
>get along with and talk to. Has an "every thing's peachy" attitude. Likes
>talking and singing. Loves music. Daydreamer. Easily distracted. Hates not
>being trusted. BIG imagination. Loves to be loved. Hates studying. in need
>of "that someone". Longs for freedom. Rebellious when withheld or
>restricted. Lives by "no pain no gain" caring. Always a suspect. Playful.
>Mysterious. "charming" or "beautiful" to everyone. stubborn. curious.
>Independent. Strong willed. A fighter. Repost in 5 mins and you will meet
>the love of your life sometime next month.
>Sept
> Active and dynamic. Decisive and haste but tends to regret. Attractive
>and affectionate to oneself. Strong mentality. Loves attention. Diplomatic.
>Consoling, friendly and solves people's problems. Brave and fearless.
>Adventurous. Loving and caring. Suave and generous. Usually you have many
>friends. Enjoys to make love. Emotional. Stubborn. Hasty. Good memory.
>Moving, motivates oneself and others. Loves to travel and explore.
>Sometimes sexy in a way that only their lover can understand. If you do
>not repost this in the next 5 mins, someone very close to you will become
>mad at you in the next 8 days.
>Oct
> Loves to chat. Loves those who love them. Loves to takes things at the
>center. Inner and physical beauty. Lies but doesn't pretend. Gets angry
>often. Treats friends importantly. Brave and fearless. Always making
>friends. Easily hurt but recovers easily. Daydreamer. Opinionated. Does not
>care to control emotions. Unpredictable. Extremely smart, but definitely
>the hottest AND sexiest of them all. repost this in 5 mins or you will not
>meet the love of your life for 10 years.
>Nov
> Trustworthy and loyal. Very passionate and dangerous. Wild at times.
>Knows how to have fun. Sexy and mysterious. Everyone is drawn towards your
>inner and outer beauty and independent personality. Playful, but secretive.
>Very emotional and temperamental sometimes. Meets new people easily and
>very social in a group. Fearless and independent. Can hold their own.
>Stands out in a crowd. Essentially very smart. Usually, the greatest men
>are born in this month. If you ever begin a relationship with someone from
>this month, hold on to them because their one of a kind. Repost in 5 mins &
>you will excel in a major event coming up sometime this month.
>Dec
> This straight-up means you are the most good-looking person possible...
>Better than all of these other months! Loyal and generous. Patriotic.
>Competitive in everything. Active in games and interactions. Impatient and
>hasty. Ambitious. Influential in organizations. Fun to be with. Easy to
>talk to, though hard to understand. Thinks far with vision, yet complicated
>to know. Easily influenced by kindness. Polite and soft-spoken. Having lots
>of ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating tends to delay. Choosy and
>always wants the best. Temperamental. Funny and humorous. Loves to joke.
>Good debating skills. Has that someone always on his/her mind. Talkative.
>Daydreamer. Friendly. Knows how to make friends. Abiding. Able to show
>character. One guy/girl kind of person. Loveable. Easily hurt. Prone to
>getting colds. Loves music. Pretty/handsome. Loves to dress up. Easily
>bored. Fussy. Seldom shows emotions. Takes time to recover when hurt.
>Sensitive. [A hot new guy/girl will catch your eye & you will catch theirs
>too in the next 6 days, if you repost in 5min
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happie bdae..

it has been a short week..becos of the long holildaes..it was reali quite a good and long break..missed the fireworks in the end..my mum din let mi go and watch..guess haf to wait for next year le..=(

and before i forget..hAPPiE BiRthDaE yUeJiA...=DD 18th bdae le worx..hahax..enjoy yourself and hope all ya dreams cum true k..=)

hahax..funnie things happened on fridae and saturdae..was reali laughing until i teared..coincidence huhs..=PP

.happie national dae.

todae's national dae..and it's oso my dad's bdae..went out during the morn..till evening..had lunch at a hotel..it was quite nice..lyk the coffee pork ribs and the choc plus strawberry icecream..wanted to buy a wallet for my dad..but it was veri ex..at least $90..din haf enough savings now..so ended buying hush puppy socks for him..tink he nids new pair of socks too..hope he'll lyk it..happie bdae daddy..hahas..=)

went out wif my mum sis and maid yest..cos my mum took an off dae..went bp for lunch and to shop..bought a pair of earrings..my mum refused to buy it for mi cos i haf mani pairs at home..so had to pay for it myself..lyk it veri much cos it's dangling..and theres a small star at the bottom..sweet and nice..hahax..jus luv accessories..though theres alreadi quite alot at home..but arent they jus beautiful..hahax..

and someone went out wif someone to watch fireworks..was happily telling mi..despite the envious look on my face..cos i reali wanted to go and watch..heard it's reali veri beautiful..and was still singing the national dae songs happily and changing the lyrics at the same time..hOh..haha..tis is not a hint..no..it's a hint to my darling t.zr..who watched her fireworks wif..instead of us..fine...hahaX..=Pp

after tat..met hling at lot one to buy my dad's prez..we walked ard oso..till now..im still veri happie she's going for grad nite..cos i noe she reali din wan to go..as it's reali ex..hahax..was quite touched when she said i was one of the reasons she went..hahax..=P looking forward to grad nite..=)

was reading * blog..everything is susceptible to change..isnt it..i grow to realise tat actuali theres so much things tat are so vulnerable..despite putting so much effort previously to grow it carefully..but when you realise tat something you treasured and held onto so much..is suddenly gone..jus lyk tis..it reali breaks your heart..when you noe tat the best way is to let go..and yet you cant..it jus hurts..but perhaps..when you look back years later..you'll realise tat it's jus part and parcel of life..it's jus part of growing up..but is tis the best way of comforting yourself..

there are so mani things i wan to sae..but yet i cant..cos i dunwan to spoil anything..y am i holding onto something no one even cares abt..it breaks my heart..when i realise the amt of trust is all gone..the doubts..the suspicion..the no of daes spent..it jus adds up to nothing..it's still nothing..in the end..

: sa daNcE concert:

went for sa dance concert wif xue yi..melissa..and wenqiang yest..finally..we met le..it has been more than half a year..missed them reali alot alot..but of cos still got yuejia..but she din cum..tot she was going..miss her alot too..cos she's in hc..but get to see kaiying n mingshu almost everydae..cos they are in nj..reali reali reali looking forward to after a's..then we can meet again..everyone of us..i miss kewen too..it has been almost 2years..


the concert was reali good..the theatre at esplanade was beautiful..it was 4storeys high..the view was beautiful..all the dances were veri good..reali..luv the one abt freedom of woman..tink it was abt women waiting for the return of their lovers..then they were placing lighted lamps on the 'river'..which was act a long long piece of white cloth..hahax..but veri funnie..cos can see pple pulling it at the backstage..luv the music..it was veri sad and touching..wenqiang luv the song too..hahax..we were gushing over it..then mel couldnt stand it..hahax..the dances veri reali beautiful..captivating..engaging..full of emotions..reali worth all the rush and hurry..=) muz thank mel for bringing us there..and..hahas..yups..the dancers were veri pretty..veri veri graceful..after tat..it ended at 10 plus..then we sat outside esplanade..then we tok alot..crap and crap..reali felt lyk jus continue staying there..but it was veri late le..lucky managed to catch the last train back..reached home veri late..past midnite..overall..reali luv the dance concert..esp wif the company of my darls..we made a pact to shop fr gradnite clothes after the a's..
it's a miracle reali..the feeling jus stays there..lyk 2years ago..and it din fade at all..=)

we took some pic..most of it are in out phones..but i dunno how to load them into the com..oni took 2 wif the digital cam..the backgrd is dark becos we were in the theatre..we took them secretly..cos we were act not allowed to take ani pic in the theatre..then one of it was outside esplanade..asked mel's fren to take for us..and ahh..i suspect tat guy lyks her..hahax..=P reason..ahmm..lets see huhs..=Pp

look veri fat in the pic..but nvm..muz put not nice pic in the blog..but it's the pic of four of us..together..=) yest was reali a happie dae..^-^

..random tots..

its finally fridae tmr..yeA..sa dance nite at esplande..hahax..will get to see them again le..hope the performance will be nice..bought a purple dress at bp plaza todae..hahax..lyk it veri much..cos i tink it looks nice..bleahs..=P then bought a necklace too..it's a blue crystal necklace..spent quite alot..so haf to fork out my own money for the dress and necklace..decided to wear them tmr..hope it'll be nice..=)

tmr is angela's bdae..hahax..still rem a year ago..i blogged abt someone waiting downstaris at angela's house wif a cake..book and bear..hahax..so tis year...ahmm..hahax..we shall noe tmr...;) but shall wish her first...haPPiE biRthDaE dEaR..^-^

hahax..lyk matilda in spore idol..jus luv her voice..it reali touches ya heart..hope she'll win..=D




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: trust is the basis of all frenships..:*

mondae agains..

tireds..had bio test todae..it was e entire core syllabut..but couldnt fini..cos it was alot..act jus read thru abt 4 chapters..it was quite okay..tink can pass..din zzZ alot yest..tink oni 3h at most..kept tinking n tinking..i wonder if one dae..i'll fini using my braincells..haha..

im a lucky gal..i was given alot of things..but everything is fair..in return for all the things i was granted..i tink i haf gone thru..perhaps alot more than mani pple..it hasnt been an easy path..hling alwaes comfort mi..saeing..after each experience..i learn alot..it's true..but sometimes..it's jus too much..perhaps it's jus mi..i tink alot..i worrie alot alot..im afraid one dae..when everything cums together..i'll collapse..but the thing tat comforts mi is..i noe whenever i nid help..they will be there..* even though it's 1am at nites..* =D hahas..i'll hang on..i will be brave..





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:.am i worrying too much..am i tinking too much..wats the key to the answer..shd i continue worrying.:

last two weeks haf been quite bad..i lost something..but i gained something in return..i suddenly realise how vulerable some things are..but yet how valuable some things are..perhaps quietness is jus a way of protecting myself..

it reali broke my heart to see how things changed..there were so mani times when i reali felt lyk letting go..but yet i cant make myself do it..i feel so silly..for crying over it..alot of things are no longer within my control..perhaps one dae..when theres nth to hold on anymore..i'll gif everything back..


tis fridae..there will be sa dance nite..looking forward to meeting mel..xy..yj..wq they all..it has been more than half a year..reali miss them lots lots lots..






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